"... If I have seeds and can make flowers grow the garden won't be dead at all - it will come alive." - The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnett.
It came to me many a time that I represent myself a much more happy and positive person in my blog than I really am. One reason is that blogging for me is a way of reflection on the small things I do and surrounded by and in which I find joy and comfort. I do share some worries and little frustrations too but all the major part of my quite anxious nature stays somewhere there as soon as I start a new post. I don’t feel like complaining and nagging, and weeping over all the problems which come in and go away. I simply cannot complain when I upload another picture of a colourful crochet work or a beautiful sunset and write a small caption to them – life becomes much much happier the same moment, I feel I am blessed with so many things that sounding off feels like a sin to me.
It came to me many a time that I represent myself a much more happy and positive person in my blog than I really am. One reason is that blogging for me is a way of reflection on the small things I do and surrounded by and in which I find joy and comfort. I do share some worries and little frustrations too but all the major part of my quite anxious nature stays somewhere there as soon as I start a new post. I don’t feel like complaining and nagging, and weeping over all the problems which come in and go away. I simply cannot complain when I upload another picture of a colourful crochet work or a beautiful sunset and write a small caption to them – life becomes much much happier the same moment, I feel I am blessed with so many things that sounding off feels like a sin to me.
Of course my husband is the one who takes it all first, who
always listens to me and understands, and helps to come over all the worries
and doubts. Living away from your native land in another land which differs
from it is not easy. Sometimes I do feel lonely here, sometimes I feel that no
one understands me, that no one cares, that I am on my own … it is not true
though but it makes me tougher and possibly stronger.
I am not sure why I am writing this particular post today
but I “felt like it” – the words of our friend who explained why she again came
to India. So I “felt like it” and writing is one of the things you are free to
do because and when you feel like.
I suppose I am not alone in this thinking that at times
public blog doesn’t reveal a whole person, but just a few features of his
character or even can present a person quite different from who he/she actually
is. I am not saying that when I show my crafts or tell little things from my life in the posts, I lie. No, it is me too but in my case - more optimistic. I really want
to transfer this attitude in my routine, be it sunny or rainy, cold or hot,
whatever. My baby needs a smiling and cheerful mom, and the same dad of course,
who fell sick by the way, but I encourage him to get well soon (also by the means of medications and traditional home remedies – tea, honey, lemon
etc). I had to keep away from him (no hugging and moreover kissing), yea, baby
rules!
And about blog name change… Whatever but I am always so much
thrilled with the support you get from a blogging community! I got so many
responses on my latest post and I am once again thankful to all of you for
giving your opinions, and at the same time supporting my decisions. I will let you know soon, as right now I am in the process
of name confirmation, but need to approach my D in his busy schedule to ask his
opinion too - he ultimately is also a huge part of my ramblings hereJ.
✿✿✿ Have a wonderful day,and stay positive!✿✿✿
